The mid twenties crisis - - - Life with all its surprises

Looking back, I was just a young girl who wants two simple things in life.

1. pocketbooks
2. lotion

I don't even watch news...the h*ll i care about what happens to our government, to the US or showbiz...

All I cared about was to finish my studies and to start working and earning on my own..

I never thought it would complicate my life the more...

It got me thinking now, what have I achieved in life? Was I able to achieve what I thought I wanted in life?

What I wanted #1

At 10, I already dreamt of becoming a lawyer

What I achieved instead

At 25, I am a customer care manager of a telecom company in the small city of Doha in Qatar (I bet not everyone knows where Qatar actually is as it is not that famous as Dubai - FYI, it is in the ME as well)

What happened?

At 16, I had to decide what course I should take in college. All that mattered to my parents was for me to pass the entrance exam in UP with which I had very little faith I would as what I wanted to take was Political Science (pre law) which is UP's specialty.
As I have guessed, I got 2.75..and the passing mark was 2.50...so moving on, I had to try other schools.
My mom would like me to try Miriam College but my best friend who, on the other hand, wanted to be a doctor,dragged me to UST instead. Clueless at entrance examinations, I wrote down BS Biology (pre med) as my first choice in the application form just so I could have the same room and schedule of entrance exam as my bestfried...and voila..I was the one who passed the exam for BS Biology! (which by the way, was my hatest science subject when I was in 2nd yr HS)..my bestfriend was quite devastated because she was the brainier between us two. Well, she has passed the entrance exam in UP anyway...

So my bestfriend went to UP and I went to premed in UST...OF COURSE, I had the hardest time in college as it was not really what I wanted in the first place but it was the lesser of two evils (my choices were UST pre med or MAPUA architecture - pls don't ask me why because I also don't know why I wanted that). Secondly, my father got laid off from work during my 1st yr in college which made it a lot harded for me.

Anyway, I had the greatest and richest friends in college (hahaha) which helped me get through...I miss them (Hello Sheng, Martz, Gretch, Ronz, Marge and Clauds)

After pre med, I had to work already. My friends went to med school and now are all doctors. (am proud of them!)

1st job lasted for two weeks - outbound sales call center agent somewhere in Ortigas...hehehe I had to quit since I thought then it was not my forte to sell...

2nd job lasted two years - Globe telecom in Boni -where I had the BEST time in the world and where I had my first ever heart break...

When my 1st bf broked up, I knew I have to make my "2nd most wanted thing to do" come true...

What I wanted#2 - to work abroad

With Jeng, my Globetel buddy, I had gone through almost every agency in Malate way back 2006. I was so broken hearted then and I had to get some fresh air. I thought that working abroad would solve all my problems.

Finally, JEng and I knew about JM international, our agency and off we go to Qatar.

What I wanted#3 - to be a succesful career woman

At 23, I am already abroad. My goal were so simple then, I just wanted to save some money so I could study law and help my parents send my 3 younger brothers to school.

what happened instead

I was hired a sales staff but even before our first shop opened, I was moved to the office and was assigned as customer care executive instead.

The first months were hell as we had no customers yet and there were so many issues in the office (both personal and professional). Competition was throat to throat, crab mentality was scattered and was making my life like H*ll. I was so surprised as I have never experienced that in Globe. I had a happy and healthy career back in the Philippines.

In less than a year, I had been promoted as supervisor and when I finished 2 yrs, I decided to give up everything and went back to Phil.

I stayed there for three months, only to realize I had to go back since my brothers need my help (financial)...

I had to go back, in less than a year, I was promoted as manager and praise God, it helped my family a whole lot...although my "4th most wanted" thing had to wait a while...

What I wanted#4 - True Love!!! (cliche as it is)

Of course, this was what every single soul wants...and I know that is exactly what I have now but it has to wait...

It hurts that we had to be apart but all the things i prayed for is already here and letting go would be the biggest mistake I can make.

Whenever I look at him, I remember the little heartache I felt during JS Prom where everyone has their own date while I sit alone... I remember all the things I prayed for when I was a 16 yr old hopeless romantic who wishes to find a potential knight in shining armor in almost every guy who passes me by... I remember all the things I thought of whenever I see a happy couple passing me by...I remember what I felt when I watched the fairy tale romance of famous couples like Aga and Charlene...and I often wonder if he sees his future in me...

I am just glad he found me...it is indeed true no matter how hard you tried to hide from love, it will find you eventually WITH revenge because you will not be able to resist it even though it will always remain without any promises...I guess that is just how love should be..always surprising...

I would be a hypocrite to say I am not dreaming of him proposing someday..it has always been what I wanted or maybe that would be my "5th most wanted thing" but then who knows what will happen next... life is full of surprises... =)

..i'm back...

Been months since I last posted an entry here...

missin it so so much but wasn't able to find time to do so...

well, God has again blessed me as this year (2009) started...got promoted and hopefully will be able to save money to open up a li'l biz in the phil...

anyway, i am still miles away from my loved ones which makes it so hard for me...

i miss my mom, my dad and his jokes and my bros of course who share almost the same interests as mine..

of course..i miss my hubby the most..i miss the late night movies...i miss us pigging out in some resto, i miss the out of town adventures, i miss malling with him and i miss joking around with him the most...

cut my hair short, didn't liked it at first but i had to since i can't do anything anymore! hehehe
bought sunsilk green for faster growing hair but i ended up using dove instead!

moved out of the company paid accomodation so that i can get to have a home away from work!

got crazy over twilight saga...books and movie

crazy over rin on the rox vids in youtube right now...

so far so good but i am really hoping i can go back home to phil this april as i have promised my hubby...

My Coping Mechanism

Out of depression, I got into the habit of taking pics of almost everything…from my beloved stuffed toy…

“Mikee”

I so love this pic I’ve taken of her holding pics of my parents and of me and my loved one…

Yeah..funny as it is..and despite my last blog..WE are still together…

To my roommate’s stuffed toy…

“Mojo”

He was holding Joana’s fave book as of now.."twilight” – which was of course given to her by her ever thoughtful Hamude…

Hopefully, we’ll be able to watch the movie as well…

To my flatmate’s/friend’s book…

“The Secret”

By Rhonda Byrne

I am still not done with this book but so far, I am loving every chapter..and I’d like to believe it as well…hehehe

I was supposed to buy a copy..good thing emily bought one so I just borrowed it…

I will talk about “The Secret” in my next blog…I took more pictures and I’ll probably talk about them in my next blogs as well…hoping I’d make more sense…

...the monster in me..(odds of getting into long distance relationship)

Oct 9, 2008

As I boarded the plane that day, the last sms I have received from him made me cry..all the tears I held up from falling on our way to the airport burst as I replied to his message...God knows I don't wanna go but I had to...

I never thought I can be in love like this in my whole life as I have always perceived love as a weakness...love as a FAILURE...

HE has always been positive while I was almost always negative about things...and I know that HE has been who I was waiting for all my life...but along with the strong feeling I have for him were fears which are uncontrollably stronger...

******fast forward*******

Dec 12, 2008

Several times, we've had fights since I got here...all because of my fear of losing HIM...

Even I, cannot understand what am I going through..I fear that HE might find someone far better than me and be happier...my friends would call it insecurity while I call it insanity...

HE would always say we can make it work and I wanna believe HIM...

There were times that I just wanna give up...times when I thought that letting go of US would make things better for me and him...

I have always wanted to be a part of HIM but I am now unsure if I am strong enough to be the person whom he can lean on...

I have always wanted to be postive about US but there are things that I cannot get off my mind...

I have always tried to be the person who'll cheer HIM up whenever he is down, celebrate all his victories with HIM, help HIM out whenever he has problems BUT instead I have grown to be his nightmare...

I have always hoped this fairytale would last but I have to find myself again...I have to find the person who promised to take care and be with HIM forever...

***if loving you is all that means to me, and being happy is all i hope you'll be..then loving you must mean I really have to set you free***

Baby Julia's First Month Bday at The Pearl Qatar

We celebrated my inaanak - Baby Julia's first month bday in Qatar's newest pride --- The Pearl Qatar...the branded as Venice's finest in Qatar...which I should agree was one of the nicest places to go to not only in the whole of Qatar but the world..naks!

Qatar, known for having the most architecturally defying buildings, proudly presents one of their newest art shown in the picture below which will surely fill you with awe.... ZIGZAG kung zigzag! amazing huh?!

Inside The Pearl, there were signage everywhere..it actually looks like one of those in photofunia but mind you..it's the real thing! We really loved the exterior as well as the interior...AWESOME...

There was actually a very cozy pool inside one of the buildings within the pearl..you will really be amazed with the chandeliers hanging on the cieling just above the pool (sorry but i was not able to paste the pic here)...

Of course, we did not passed up on taking pix of the scenic view... We were with the lovers Wael and pretty Soumaiya...

The night approached and so was the band of Russian guys playing lively music and strolling along the part full of coffee shops and mini bars...

Well, there were several coffee shops there - Costa, Columbiano and Second Cup... we were supposed to go to Costa but there were no available seats so we had to go with Second Cup which was actually just as good if not better than Costa when it comes to their coffee and my new found love --- MUFFINS! argh! I miss their muffins right this very minute...

I so love this day! I am looking forward to Julia's 2nd month bday celebration! Love yah Julia...mwah!

My Hubby's Big Day - Gerona, Tarlac - September 24, 2008

Two days before his birthday...my hubby was still uncertain where to celebrate. We have long been planning to go out of town but due to his hectic schedule and the frequent drops (rain) we never got the chance to put our plans into action.

Then came his big day...all of a sudden, he asked me to go to Isdaan in Gerona, Tarlac. Never been to that place and of course wanting to spend my day with the birthday boy, I gladly and without hesitation agreed to go.

We tried to inquire in two bus stations along Edsa..we weren't lucky the first time so we had to go across the street to try out another station and luckily, we were able to find a slot in one of the buses heading to urdaneta.

I was extremely excited to go to Isdaan as I have always loved to travel and of course EAT..hehehe My hubby and I loves eating so much..we even spent our first date pigging out in Dampa, the one near MOA (let me talk about that in another post).

We boarded the bus at around 1 pm and traveled for around 5 hours (which seems very short for me). There were two stop overs, one in Dau, Pampanga and the other one in Tarlac City. My hubby who, as I have mentioned loves eating like me, was munching on junk food on our way to Gerona..Knowing how much he loves LEGS so much..I was practically guarding him against the girl in a miniskirt on the seat opposite ours...hehehehe but when I saw her face, my insecurity faded hahaha you can imagine why...my hubby traded seats with me when the sun was so hot as I was sitting besides the window...sweetness...hehehe

Finally, we arrived at the REMOTE area..hehehe ISDAAN..despite being in the middle of nowhere, I was filled with awe as we set foot in isdaan. The view is really AWEsome! The greenery and set up was so cool that I thought I was in Bangkok, Thailand! There was several buddhas and statues of Cory A. and Cardinal Sin where we took shots of. Also, the floating nipa hut is exactly where you wanna spend your early dinner. My hubby and I were so happy but we can't help but compare the food in Isdaan with the ones we had before in Dampa which we think was so much better. Anyways, the view was what we came there for, food was just secondary as there were so many resto in Manila.

After we ate, we strolled around the place and took shots of almost every part of it..our favorite spot was where the biggest buddha was...it was a view from the top so you can overlook the whole of isdaan..we took videos and pics of us together there...

Just before night falls..we had to go..we waited for a bus passing by Isdaan heading to Manila..it took us 30 minutes to finally board home..once we got inside the bus, heavy rain poured...lucky us...

It was already almost midnight when we arrived home and we were both wet because of the heavy rain but you can see the happiness in our faces...we were both tired but very much enjoyed that day...it was one of the happiest days of my life...